Been a while

Wow, it's been forever since I last posted! Work and life in general has been crazy!! I will update the best I can. William (Billy) is now 9 months old! Here's a family picture...

Our baby...coming January 21st, 2010!

Disgusted

I cannot believe this was all made up. What a sick individual.

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First OB appt

Well, today I was at the Dr for 2 hours!! I had blood work done and talked to the OB coordinator. She went over my history and my family's history. She asked about DH's history and his family's history. I mentioned I was a carrier for Tay-Sachs, so she did recommend I have DH tested. I had requested that the donor facility send my records, so they will have all of their testing in front of them. She went over what I should and should not do. No more soccer or riding with DH on the motorcycle. :( She also went over what I shouldn't eat. She mentioned what would happen at all the appts and what the delivery process will be, as far registering early. She gave me bag full of info and mentioned the classes offered at St. Mary's hospital. It was overwhelming, but informational! All I can say is that I am so exhausted! Good night!!

I can't believe I'm pregnant!

Well, you saw the last post! I took 2 tests and both were VERY positive. My first appt is this Thursday at 1:15pm. I am really nervous, but excited. They are just running some tests, but I'm not sure if I will have an internal exam done. I am only seeing the OB coordinator. June 22nd I will actually see my doctor and I will have my first u/s!! My current symptoms are nausea, fatigue, heavy bb's, warming sensation in the abdomen, moodiness, and cramping.

I think my DH is still in shock. I think he won't believe it until I go to the doctor. He's not coming with me to my first appt, since they won't be able to hear a HB. So, I think my EDD is January 14th, so we'll see what the nurse says on Thursday. I'm getting very scared lately...thinking what did we get ourselves into!?!?! I have to keep reminding myself that I am 28 and younger girls do it all the time! I know my DH really wanted me to donate my eggs for the money (to pay off debt), so I really hope he doesn't think I did this on purpose. I think God had something in store for us...prepared or not.

What?!?!?

????

Not sure what's going on with my body, but I am late...really late. Today is day 39. I took 2 tests last Friday and this past Monday...both BFN's. I don't know if I should waste another test this weekend. It's quite possible that I ovulated late and tested too early, but I don't feel any different. I don't feel pregnant.

It's been a while

Well, a lot has happened in the last few weeks. My DH did not get tested for Tay-Sachs. The doctor's office he went to did not have the necessary tube to collect his blood in, so we decided not to worry about it. What would we do anyway?

The donation clinic contacted me to let me know they may have found a match for my eggs, but I would not be able to cycle until July/August. I also found out even if I was to donate to the frozen bank, I would have to wait until August/September. I really do not want to wait that long, considering I would have to wait to TTC until December or January. I know it's only 7 months away, but it seems like such a looong time. If I were to donate to a recipient, I would have to get on her cycle, which sucks. I have not heard back from the clinic, so who knows.

We found out today that my DH will lose his job at the end of June. The company he works for has lost their contract with the account they handle, so they're moving out, while the next carrier company takes over. Luckily, we knew it could happen ahead of time, so we were definitely prepared. So, it looks like I will have to donate my eggs this fall. We have no choice but to wait.

I hate the economy! Losing his job would not be so bad if there were other jobs available. So, he's looking into getting his CDL as well as getting P.O.S.T. certified (law enforcement). I would hate for him to be a police officer (they get paid so little here and he would be in danger), but we have to pay bills. I am praying he finds something soon...I feel so bad for him...

Genetics testing

The nurse at RBA contacted me yesterday afternoon to let me know that my thyroid test came back fine. But...she also informed me that I am a carrier of the Tay-Sachs disease. So, DH has to get tested as well. If we both are carriers, there is a one in four chance our child will be born with this disease. Here is the link to Wikipedia...http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tay-Sachs_disease.

I am still eligible to donate my eggs, so hopefully I will cycle next month.

Counseling session

Last night, DH and I went to Athens to see a marriage and infertility therapist. He had to go with me, since we are married, to give his consent. We had to complete this process for egg donation. I still have to fill out a questionnaire that will decipher whether I have any mental issues. We were there for 2 hours!! She went over everything!! Our childhoods, our marriage, our lives. I felt like it was an interview, but it was nice to get my husband's opinion on everything and what he thinks about me. Sometimes I get down on myself and knowing that my husband thinks I'm smarter than him made me feel so good. :) He thinks I'm caring and sensitive, but quiet. He really pays attention to me and my needs. Last night confirmed it. If we ever need counseling, I think we will see her.

I am still waiting on my BW and they will let me know when I can start. Hopefully, I can start next month.

Update

I went to my appt to get my thyroid levels checked, so I should get those results this week. DH doesn't seem to think he'll have a job after June, so I am prepared to donate my eggs and hopefully when we are ready to try (August), he will have another job lined up.

Friday night, we had my half-brother stay the night and we watched Marley and Me after eating at Cracker Barrell (yum!). We had terrible storms that night. Saturday, DH had his track day at Road Atlanta and it went well, although my little brother (who's twelve) just want to hang out with Jake. He had no interest in anything else! DH did well until after lunch, when he crashed his motorcycle. Here are a few professional pics...

OK, I can't seem to download pics, so I'll update later...Good night!!

Aunt Flow

She showed up. Starting a new cycle. Hopefully, we'll start trying May 1st.

Forgot to mention

I neglected to mention that the nurse at the donation center called me about my BW and wanted me to come back in on Friday. Apparently, my thyroid level was slightly higher than normal. It was 4.9 and should not be much higher than 4.6. So, they are going to do another blood test, but it will be only a thyroid panel. I asked about my other BW and she said everything else looked normal, but they have not received my test results from the genetics testing. So, I will ask the nurse when I go back in for more blood work.

Still no period...I guess I'm off again. I don't know if I should take another test. Normally, I ovulate on the 17th CD and today would only be 14DPO and I tested yesterday, so maybe (crossing my fingers) I tested too early?!?!?!?!

?!?!!?!?

So, I'm late. BFN. What the hell?!?!?! I was excited there for a minute until I discovered I am not pregnant. If I was, I would be due December 13th, which would be perfect! It's right before DH's birthday and I wouldn't come back to work until later in January. Oh, well. I guess I have to wait until May to see if DH will still have a job. Boo!

Jobs

DH informed me last night that he will find out for sure about his job on May 1st. Apparently, there is a bidding war, so it could go either way. I am so nervous about it. The prez of our company, as well as the VP will be coming here on April 28th. So, I am also nervous about that. My company does not like to lay off, but with the economy the way it is, you never know.

I got to thinking about the egg donation and I am not sure about going through with it. Of course all DH can think about is $$$$, so there is no talking to him about it. I think I'll wait until May 1st to make a decision. If he is out of a job, I will do it. If he keeps his job, I will not donate my eggs at this time.

Update

So, for the past week I have had a UTI and for a short while 2 days, a yeast infection. After antibiotics, I still have a UTI. So, I am waiting on the doctor to call in another drug to cure it this time.

This morning I went for my physical exam (pap smear, boob check...basically everything they do at your normal gym appt.) and some blood work (they took at least 10 vials of blood!). I also have scheduled a counseling session, which DH has to attend as well. So, after that...if everything goes as planned (as far as my consult passes and my BW looks ok), I should cycle in May. Which means, we will have to wait until August to TTC.

Egg donation update

They finally called me and would like to schedule the physician's consult, which includes blood work, a pap smear, and a vaginal culture. I am still waiting on the phone call to schedule the appt.

In other news, I now have a UTI....great. I also am ovulating today. So, maybe we'll really start trying next month...I'm tempted to postpone the donation. We'll see.

Different page

After having a discussion about how badly I want to try for a baby, DH and I were on the same page, so I thought. We decided that we would wing it and if it happens, we'll figure it out. I was really happy about that, so I wouldn't have to chart anymore. I was charting to prevent pregnancy. So, during our rendezvous last night, he pulled out. He said he still wanted to prevent on his side, because I can still get pregnant. Men! Needless to say, I was disappointed!

Update

Well, Jake is doing well, according to the vet. I am feeling better and the cats have quit sneezing for the most part.

DH send me an e-mail this morning saying he is pretty certain he will lose his job. I hate this.

Future

I have yet to hear back from the egg donation center and I am soooo tempted to say screw it and TTC. Unfortunately, we cannot try until we know for sure DH will have a job after June of this year. I don't know if I can wait much longer to TTC. Three of my friends are now pregnant and I want to go through my first pregnancy with someone. I hate having to wait for this...in fact, I hate having to wait for anything!! I am so inpatient...

In other news, Jake is back at the vet for a follow-up, so we'll see what they say. He is not limping unless he exerts himself, but it doesn't seem to bother him much.

Both of our cats are now sneezing like crazy. I think they caught a cold that Jake brought home from the vet...poor kitties. I am not sure if I should take them to the vet or not.

Even I feel sick at the moment, but I do not want to go back to the doctor, so we'll play this one by ear.

I posted an item on Craigslist over the weekend, so let's hope we can sell it...it's an etagere (glass shelves). I also posted a few text books on Amazon and someone already bought a copy!!